Momma

 

Momma, goodbye is so hard for me to even say. 

Help me figure how to write this in a way. 

I want others to see how you lost basically all 

It was too hard for you to bear knowing they won’t call.

Every day you prayed for someone to drop by,

Instead, they never saw that they were making you cry.

Will I ever forget the way you were forgotten through the years?

I moved heaven and earth to keep you out of tears. 

Did you know how much I enjoyed being there?

Were you able to feel how I cared?

I will miss you mom every day, 

I hope you were able to find your way, 

To Heaven and I will meet you again,

Along with Thomas and my other kin.

By, Crystal S. Amon

Copyrighted 2022

For My Twin Brother

 

Your my who twin brother who died alone as the state didn’t call,

He never got to hug me and I can’t understand this at all.

Now, a piece of me is broken as the days pass by.

Everyday I find myself begging for answers as to why?

This I swear to you “Eyes LIke Me” I won’t stop till I know,

Exactly what happened and why your cancer was left to grow.

We were created together as twins which made us friends for life,

Your not a bad guy but addiction took over and gave you strife.

You were my sunshine as the storm raged and I became ill,

My best friend who watched me stumble and fall but loved me still.

Every letter and video made smile as the tears always fell, 

I knew you were fighting to leave a place that I call hell.

Fly high Bubba for you are no longer in pain or chains anymore,

You took the fall for people who will face karma as you soar.

Valhalla is calling, for you were a noble warrior who rose above,

Rest easy bro, for you I will forever love.

By, Crystal S. Amon

Copyrighted 2022

The Softer Side Of You

 

 

Written by, Crystal S. Amon 

 

I love you and this I know,

Everyday, I will let it show.

Troubles may come our way, 

I am always here to stay. 

Allow me to feel as good as you, 

Don’t get angry and make me blue. 

I am trying hard can’t you see, 

Not every problem begins with me. 

My heart is hurting but you say goodbye, 

Does it bother you when I begin to cry?

I am trying so hard but I am about to break, 

Nothing about these tears are fake. 

I am hurt because see a different me, 

Why should I both when you don't see.

The way I carry the load is so you can rest, 

Yet, all I feel is heaviness in my chest. 

I want peace and happiness next to you, 

All need is for you to be true. 

Don’t expect me to just get over it,

Have a heart and take a moment to sit. 

Say you sorry and hug me today, 

Don’t even expect me to walk away. 

I know your hurting but I am too, 

All I need is a softer side of you!

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Momma's Secret

 

By, Crystal S. Kauffman-Amon

Momma’s love destroyed me with her choices,
She had a hard time blocking out the voices.
The role models she looked up to were not the best,
Still wondering what happened to the rest?

Family curses passed on as we grew,
Hell…that is the only life I knew!
Violent tempers lead to a beating,
Leaving the family was cheating.

Friends were not worth a shit,
Take off with a friend; just to get hit.
Tell the truth and people say,
Damn girl, don’t speak that way!

I hated her for all she did to me,
Until, I became a new mommy.
I chose to forgive and stop the hate,
Once I realized that I could finally relate.

How do I keep my child away from the hell?
Never could I form the words to tell.
My family that they were toxic too,
Love kept me driving through.

Learning more about momma’s pain,
Made me understand the huge black stain.
Learning to love the broken woman she is,
Will be how I choose to handle all of this.

Healing her with my love and time,
Will be how I chose to spend my dime.
Until she takes her very last breath,
Then, I will be with her again after my death.

Understanding her life made me see,
She was never allowed to be free.
So, today I thank her for the gift of life,
My love for her still cuts like a knife.

Don’t talk about what you don’t know.
Her life is not a prime time family show,
She’s a victim of family secrets too.
Down her and just know I’ll punch you!

Copyright 2019

Picking Up My Crown

Written by, Crystal S. Kauffman-Amon

I won’t allow you to tear me down, 

Never again will I forget my crown.

You chose to play with my heart and mind, 

Now, I am free and I have put you far behind.

Stay man, don't come back and beg for another try, 

I will laugh until it is you who is the last to cry. 

I broke through all the pain and rose beyond the call, 

I choose to never again allow you to let me fall. 

Your not even worth another tear of mine,

I proved I don't need you, not one silver dime.

My worth was clouded by your choice to tear me apart.

Today, you have no place within my heart.

Walk away and live with the choices you made,

My heart will never be cut again by your silver blade. 

Judgements and rejections are all I knew,

During this selfish dance I spent with you.

Copyright 2020

Papa's Way

By, Crystal S. Kauffman

Who is going to take care of you, once I pass away?
Me…Papa, because you taught me that way.
I may not be rich, but I will not do without much.
Since, I know how to take care of myself and such.

I met a hardcore man who reminds me of you,
He’s a mechanic and he’s grumpy too.
Sometimes, I smell the grease and taken back,
To a time when I was with you at the racetrack.

Other moments I see you turn to wave,
Papa, I know I must continue to be brave.
You were more than a Papa to me and you knew,
You were my dad and I was your heart too,

Today, I wish you was here cause I need you now,
I cannot keep my strength up, I just don’t know how.
When he is grumpy, I think about the way you were,
You had my back, even when I wasn’t sure.

I wish you could meet him, but I know you’d be fine,
With this man that I have chosen to be mine.
You didn’t let me give up and he won’t either,
Even though, I want to Papa..I won’t neither.

Hold my hand, as I deal with the changes in my life,
Help me not to give in when the path is full of strife,
Teach me trust my heart and count on my man,
To be my strength, when I don’t understand God’s plan.

Copyrighted 2019

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