Changes Happen

 Changes happen to us sometimes overnight,

Some are of the dark, while others are of the light. 

Give yourself credit because you’re still standing,

You made it to a place that’s safe for landing. 

Never give up… at least that’s what they say,

Don’t forget you have a reason to stay,

Find the place where you belong, 

Don’t let your problems stick around too long.

Remember to hold your head up high, 

Smile big as you continue to walk on by.

Stand up tall and face your fears,

Wipe away the constant stream of tears.

Focus on you goals and dreams, 

Nothing is ever as it may seem.

You may fail but just do it anyway.

Let those around you know you're here to stay.

By, Crystal S. Amon

Copyrighted 2022

Momma

 

Momma, goodbye is so hard for me to even say. 

Help me figure how to write this in a way. 

I want others to see how you lost basically all 

It was too hard for you to bear knowing they won’t call.

Every day you prayed for someone to drop by,

Instead, they never saw that they were making you cry.

Will I ever forget the way you were forgotten through the years?

I moved heaven and earth to keep you out of tears. 

Did you know how much I enjoyed being there?

Were you able to feel how I cared?

I will miss you mom every day, 

I hope you were able to find your way, 

To Heaven and I will meet you again,

Along with Thomas and my other kin.

By, Crystal S. Amon

Copyrighted 2022

Can’t Do Nothing Right!

It appears that you have indeed forgotten me,

The person who is never going to be on your team. 

Yet, your judgements cause me to ask myself why?

Whenever your cruel words begin to hurl and fly.

Brokenhearted by the crap you choose to believe,

So, as a result, I cannot control my anxiety until I leave. 

Your lack of respect screams loudly once again,

Why do you punish me for your own thoughts and foolish sin?

Loyalty is not a word that you will ever allow my heart to feel, 

Instead, I’m lonely with you and are tired of this one-sided deal.

My pleasure and emotional needs are not in your future plan,

Tired of feeling like you will never be a happy man.

I watch you sleep and I remain lonely on your couch,

However, instantly you show me that you are a grouch.

I can’t cuddle or even sit beside you in bed,

Because, you want your privacy and right to sleep instead.

Your constant silence speaks volumes tonight, 

It’s been over a week and you haven’t even asked, “If I am alright.”

I am sick of waiting for you to give a damn,

So, do what you want because you are a grown man. 

Don’t tell me anymore lies just because you are sad,

Dealing with your negative and mean ass makes me mad. 

You disrespect me each and every fucking time,

You lie to me and say you want me but you need time. 

Don’t mess with woman’s mind and ask her to forgive you,

Especially when you believe the world revolves around you.

You want to live in such a negative dismay,

Lose my number and just stay the heck away.

You cheated on me and always lied about your shit,

Don’t you know, I chose not to give up or quit.

I need someone who is proud to be by my side everyday,

As well as be with a man who respects me in every way. 

By, Crystal S. Amon

Copyrighted 2022

This is My Story; This is Your Song

 

The cracks in my mind began to plainly show,

After three years of watching your lies flown,

Dishonesty was all I was given by this man

After learning the bitter truth about his “plan”.

Thank you for showing me the man you are,

Give my cuts time to heal as they become scars.

Purposely, I created this lyrical rhyme to speak,

Every word you spoke made the cruelty leak.

You won’t hurt me anymgore because I am smart,

Stop wasting my time because I hardened my heart.

Withholding affection because of someone else’s lies,

Shattering my heart taught me to trust myself as I fly.

Stronger because you made me face the devil’s drug,

Each painful selfish action showed me I was your rug.

Never again will I ever accept this kind of mental abuse,

Why tear me down until I decided to get a new tattoo.

After disrespectful statements began to cause my fall,

Learning to rise above the toxic comments of your lying call.

All the kindness I once felt was killed off this very night,

You made the “brown-eyed devil” come out to fight.

Those sins you committed are yours; not mine to ever bear,

Stop blaming me for losing all you had because I don’t care,

You created this drama because you decide to never trust me,

Don’t ask me to care that you lost because I am finally free.

Memorize this song as this is this last one I will write for you,

My voice is raised and you cannot tell me what I feel is not true.

Remember you made me accept your rules as well as your choice,

Not once in this dance was I allowed to have an opinion or a voice.

My time to speak is now as I choose months ago to say you're the fool,

I will tell everyone how you treated me because I was a loving jewel.

This song is yours and you will hear it as you endure life’s cruel dance,

I will tell everyone how you treated me because I was a loving jewel.

Copyright, 2020

Momma's Secret

 

By, Crystal S. Kauffman-Amon

Momma’s love destroyed me with her choices,
She had a hard time blocking out the voices.
The role models she looked up to were not the best,
Still wondering what happened to the rest?

Family curses passed on as we grew,
Hell…that is the only life I knew!
Violent tempers lead to a beating,
Leaving the family was cheating.

Friends were not worth a shit,
Take off with a friend; just to get hit.
Tell the truth and people say,
Damn girl, don’t speak that way!

I hated her for all she did to me,
Until, I became a new mommy.
I chose to forgive and stop the hate,
Once I realized that I could finally relate.

How do I keep my child away from the hell?
Never could I form the words to tell.
My family that they were toxic too,
Love kept me driving through.

Learning more about momma’s pain,
Made me understand the huge black stain.
Learning to love the broken woman she is,
Will be how I choose to handle all of this.

Healing her with my love and time,
Will be how I chose to spend my dime.
Until she takes her very last breath,
Then, I will be with her again after my death.

Understanding her life made me see,
She was never allowed to be free.
So, today I thank her for the gift of life,
My love for her still cuts like a knife.

Don’t talk about what you don’t know.
Her life is not a prime time family show,
She’s a victim of family secrets too.
Down her and just know I’ll punch you!

Copyright 2019

Picking Up My Crown

Written by, Crystal S. Kauffman-Amon

I won’t allow you to tear me down, 

Never again will I forget my crown.

You chose to play with my heart and mind, 

Now, I am free and I have put you far behind.

Stay man, don't come back and beg for another try, 

I will laugh until it is you who is the last to cry. 

I broke through all the pain and rose beyond the call, 

I choose to never again allow you to let me fall. 

Your not even worth another tear of mine,

I proved I don't need you, not one silver dime.

My worth was clouded by your choice to tear me apart.

Today, you have no place within my heart.

Walk away and live with the choices you made,

My heart will never be cut again by your silver blade. 

Judgements and rejections are all I knew,

During this selfish dance I spent with you.

Copyright 2020

Magical Moments With You

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Written By, Crystal S. Kauffman

Trembling inside your warm embrace,

Hiding the raw emotions on my face.

Holding me as I tried to hide the tears,

Panic paralyzes my entire body in fear.

Magical connection that I know is real,

I am still afraid to allow my heart to feel.

My ice-cold heart is beginning to melt,

Strange emotions that I have never felt.

I would give up tomorrow just to say,

In your arms is where I want to stay.

Every stolen moment with you,

Allows me to feel something new.

Copyrighted 2020 

Papa's Way

By, Crystal S. Kauffman

Who is going to take care of you, once I pass away?
Me…Papa, because you taught me that way.
I may not be rich, but I will not do without much.
Since, I know how to take care of myself and such.

I met a hardcore man who reminds me of you,
He’s a mechanic and he’s grumpy too.
Sometimes, I smell the grease and taken back,
To a time when I was with you at the racetrack.

Other moments I see you turn to wave,
Papa, I know I must continue to be brave.
You were more than a Papa to me and you knew,
You were my dad and I was your heart too,

Today, I wish you was here cause I need you now,
I cannot keep my strength up, I just don’t know how.
When he is grumpy, I think about the way you were,
You had my back, even when I wasn’t sure.

I wish you could meet him, but I know you’d be fine,
With this man that I have chosen to be mine.
You didn’t let me give up and he won’t either,
Even though, I want to Papa..I won’t neither.

Hold my hand, as I deal with the changes in my life,
Help me not to give in when the path is full of strife,
Teach me trust my heart and count on my man,
To be my strength, when I don’t understand God’s plan.

Copyrighted 2019

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The Twin's Castle

Moonlight's Wish

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Written By, Imogen Rayne

Under the moonlight I see the real you,

No one else gets to see the man that I do.

All that matters is the way that you make me feel,

My heart dances with each smile that I steal.

This relationship is built on an emotional bond,

Just a simple touch makes my heart respond.

Respect and trust built on the sands of time,

Holding back even though you say your mine.

Your grumpy and a jerk on most days,

I will just wait until you show me the ways.

To reach the part of you that are closed to me,

Maybe one day you might feel truly free.

To be the man I get to see when we fish,

Throwing my penny, I make a silent wish.

Always find your way through the darkest night,

Find only those those things that bring you light.

Copyrighted 2019

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The Twin's Castle

Silently Carved into an Emotional Stone

Written By, Crystal S. Kauffman

Don’t trust anyone with what you truly feel,

Even when you believe that they are real.

Remember to never let him see you cry,

Hold your composure; get up girl and just try.

Padlocked heart that has grown so damn cold,

Missing any part of him has just become old.

No matter what, don’t stop moving or he might see,

The emotional storm that is swirling inside or me.

Listen girl, you just need to straighten up and smile,

You won’t die, just because he eliminated his mile.

Let him see the emotional stone that he is carving,

Because now your entire body is completely starving.

Lacking the emotional touch that you never knew,

Can anything he promised be really true?

Empty heart syndrome is what you are feeling tonight,

Shape up girl, because you know what is right.

Keep everyone at arm's length and bury the key,

Don’t ever break your silence girl or bend the knee.

Let the demons give chase from time to time,

Never feeling emotions is what caused this rhyme.

Repeating on a loop in my head as the music plays,

A gentle voice reminds me to forget what he says.

Watch his actions and tune in to his energy to know.

The truth in the feelings that he continues not to show.

Hearing that sweet voice getting louder inside my head,

“Stop girl, just walk away, because he is emotionally dead.”

Time cannot heal, what I never had a hand in breaking,

It is not my job or place to just allow someone to keep taking.

Stolen moments is all I will ever really be able to get.

Love with truth behind it, is something I can forget.

The voice is screaming, “Did I raise you to even care?”

Walking away from the pitiful occasional glare.

Copyrighted 2019